Perhaps I’ve mentioned it before, but lately, I’ve been exploring the practice of letting the body move exactly as it wants to in the moment. It might sound strange, but it has been a part of creating a deepened relationship with my body. The nervous system and the fascia—yes, the entire body—responds, and I can feel the body opening up from within. I’m also breathing deeper into my body and my thoughts are more loving—I, or my body, have begun to feel safe again. It is clearly an ongoing practice, but the softness and that subtle sense of presence is there inside the body whenever I focus on it.
I can feel the difference between when the protective part is trying to keep me safe and when it’s simply a matter of unexplored experiences and territory. The first keeps me safely tucked away in the box, and the second says: take a step outside. Here is life. I can feel the body responding and the flow of life increasing.
As someone who has felt very unsafe on the inside, this has transformed the relationship with my entire self. My body is becoming a safe place for who I am.
And that allows me to feel fully alive in the moment. The senses can be used for the sensuality of the moment; I become more present with what I am experiencing.
I can also feel my entire consciousness being present—the wholeness of the moment. And as someone who feels I am a multidimensional being, I can feel that all of me can be here “simultaneously,” experiencing life through the senses. It feels incredibly rich. I get the sense that we can choose to be vessels of life. To be in a body whose operating system welcomes life—an open system where energy is allowed to flow, rather than a system in constant survival mode.
What I am exploring now is how present I can be in the moments of everyday life. I find it easier to be here in the moment with what I experience, but in certain contexts, I can lose that sense of softness and the subtle feeling of presence. In those moments, I say kind things to my body that inspire safety, and the softness embraces my experience.
So, if you’d like a little exercise in body awareness: say “I love you” inwardly to your body and become aware of what the body expresses; sensations, a thought, a feeling, or nothing at all. There is no right or wrong answer, but we do ourselves a great favor by being present with what is expressed and giving it the space to be experienced.
I wish you an inner, loving day.
Big hug,
Annika